It took me a long time to realise that my courage and vulnerability were two sides of the same coin. Trauma and heartbreak had hardened me, creating huge anxiety and manifesting as chronic pain due to my fear of authentically embracing my emotions: I was too afraid to acknowledge my truth as it did not seem to be what those around me wanted to hear. Therefore, I carried a sense of shame and guilt, alongside the story that I was not 'good enough'.
My transformation truly began when, after years of investigation, I was confronted with the stark reality that, as a sufferer of debilitating pain, the only medical options left for me were major surgery (on the basis that it was unlikely to make a meaningful difference to my pain levels) or long-term morphine use, neither of which appealed to me as a mother to young children, From somewhere deep within me I found the strength to reject this as my reality and felt determined to find another way. I was astonished to realise that this alternative had always existed within me, I had simply needed to learn to 'tune in'.
As I did so, my mere existence transformed into a life full of breakthrough, courage, compassion and meaning. For me, the power came from a place of softness and a sense of allowing things to be as they were; letting go of a need for control and allowing myself to live authentically, rather than playing a role which did not fulfil me or match my truth.
Of course, this process is far from painless: it requires the courage to look ourselves in the eye, to confront our shame, trauma and heartache rather than deny or bury it, but once we are able to do so, the rewards are immeasurable.
Life is far from plain sailing but with awareness and compassion, we are able to accept ourselves, both as the 'works in progress' and the Masterpieces that we are.
Through the practice of forgiveness, open heartedness and fierce love, we realise that any change we wish to make in the world, occurs within ourselves but that this has a profound effect on our immediate environment.
As a Spiritual Life Coach I am very much on this journey with you - I know how it feels to be overwhelmed in a world which appears to have lost its way; I have experienced a lot f trauma - bereavement of a parent as a teenager, living with a mentally ill parent; supporting loved ones through addiction, recovery and relapse; recovery from chronic pain and crippling anxiety; the emotional roller coaster of divorce; the confronting reality of a relationship which triggers - and ultimately heals unprocessed trauma - the list goes on. But these experiences have given me a strong sense of empathy and compassion which enable me to cultivate a non-judgemental space in which I can meet you where you are, as you are, and I can work alongside you to guide you through the struggles you are currently facing, to the peace and purpose that sits on the other side.
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